Reticence

A emotionless face when the world seems to crumble

A gleam in eyes when on success I tumble

The lowered eyelashes under your loving gaze

And the tweaked eyebrows when I am in a daze....

The softened smile when you talk to me....

The blushed cheeks on hearing those words three...

The twitched lips when in pensive mood

The lost eyes when I get something to brood

Holding your hand to know that you mean

A hell lot more than apparent dreams...

A pat on the back, An encouraging glance

All sum up this world and our reticence....

What If .....

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Hi... I guess I am in love....


Really!!!.. wow....That comes as a surprise !!


Yeah I know... But I think I have found the one I would want to spend my life with !!!

Thats great!!! so who is the lucky gal? and have u told her about it....

She is my school friend... I admired her in school...... but then we lost touch... met her this time .... and believe me ,,, I havent stopped loving her.... But i need to tell it to her....

Thats nice... so what are you waiting for... Go and tell her...

I don't know.. if she likes me or not.. I don't know if she is in a relationship.... I know nothing about her... You are the one who has to help me.... plz plz plz

How can I help u????

Listen .. I would introduce you to her over chat.... She is moving to delhi and u can help her with contacts and general helping around.....befriend her and please get this info out ...... plz plz .... I want to know if she is seeing someone.... for if she is then I would stay away.... please do this for me....... U r a great friend!!!

No Probs.... Will try my best :)

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Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii............. I am SOOOOOOOOOO Happy.....Thanks Thanks so much.......Thanks for sending those flowers on my behalf....... Thanks for sending the chocs,,,, She loves me .... Thanksssss :)

Anything for a friend.... Glad i was of some help....

I owe this to you....

Come on.... now enjoy..... and Many many Congratulations !!!!!

You know.... thanks for letting me cry like a child on your shoulders.... Thanks for those walks when i thought i have lost her.....Thanks for that...Thanks for everything.....

Its OK .... Anytime for a friend... So lets celebrate....

Yes :)... But first lets find someone for you....yaar kisi ko to haan bolo.... Log mare jaate hain....

No I ain't good enough....

Come on... who said so.... you are too good.....

Is it??? I still would believe I am not good enough....

Whatever..... lets celebrate.. you are the first one i broke this news to.... lemme tell this to my friends... and thanks once again for everything :)).... chalo cya... Bbye....

BBye......

........Yes I may be 'good' but i am not 'good enough'... have never been good enough for you.... 4 silent years and i have kept it hidden in my heart..... will forever do so....
But then i think.... 'what if' i had told you ever about it.... the 'what if' would always remian.....

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The Missing Pieces

Life seems like a jigsaw puzzle at times to me…. We in a frenzy trying to search for all the lost and matching pieces to give it a sense of fulfillment, a sense of completion…. The pieces in countless shapes and sizes reflecting the myriad colors of life: pleasure, sorrow, envy, love, accomplishment, faith and so on……
But then why aren’t we ever able to find all ends and make this jigsaw puzzle complete…. Is it because they don’t exist or is it because we haven’t just tried hard enough to find them and put them in place…..
Maybe the answer is ‘NO’ to both the above conjectures,,,, we spend our lives trying hard (or that is what we would like to believe that we gave it our best shot), but yet we fail… the sense of completion never comes….

I guess here lies the stark difference between our approach to life and to a simple puzzle game. All throughout our life, we just strive to find the bright colors, the colors which our vivacious and full of life…. the pieces that reflect our dreams, our aspirations and those which give us joy and pleasure. We go on adding those and increasing the web of the puzzle……. But then we forget that the pieces that reflect pain, sorrow, jealousy, blockheads, etc. are a part of this larger web and cant be avoided….they are needed to fill the missing spaces…. They tag along with these ‘Happy Pieces’ and keep on filling the unoccupied space…..
So the next time when you wonder why are u going thru this ,,, remember to cherish those sorrow, pain and fear… for a brighter, colorful jigsaw piece is awaiting somewhere down there to complement this one :)

Realization !!!!!

Vulnerable, Stupid, Idiot, Gullible, Helpless, Jealous,,,,
Too many words defining the existence,,, and how silly to have wondered that one can be a person of few words ;)

Well... life is indeed unpredictable that ways.... One might have taken pride to be the most coolest, non-chalant being on this Universe, unperturbed by happenings around, ever so satisfied with what one gets, not setting expectation and thus not bothering if they are met or not....
Life is bliss if this is the mantra.....
But then hadnt one be God if they had the right notion or belief about themselves ;)
and isnt the most peaceful, tranquil, existence, the worst sampleset and situation to have formed it ;) (i wonder why too many winkies.. but i am tempted to do so.... )

Hmmm... but yes the realization has dawned - I defnitely am not the Coolest, the most Non-Chalant and the most carefree being on Earth .... what a realization :D ... but yes so it is ....

So lemme revive this long lost blog with this new realization :)