You!!!

You are beauty, grace and love
You are my strength and all that I yearn
You are the heaven’s most beautiful description,,,
You are ubiquitous in every creation,,,
You have been my mentor, my soul, my guide,,,
You are the interpreter of my unsaid plights,,,
You are the essence of my being,
My identity and all myriad things…
You have been the calm of my turbulent self,,
You have been the endurance of my impatient self
My adolescent inaneness, you took in your stride,,
Just love and care for those mindless fights,,,
You are the light that guides my way,,,
The warmth and care that transcends all bays,,,
My biased admirer, My secret critic,,,
You made me win the things that I did,,
You are spirituality and this world for me
You are the thoughts that lead me free,,,
You are the healing to all the wounds,,,
And the numerous pains that know no bounds,,,
You are my friend, my privy, my guide,,
And I wish this shall always bide.

A Very Happy Birthday To You !!!!!

A Beautiful day!!!

For the first time at Ahmedabad , I was awake to welcome the first ray that broke into my room ,,,,so resplendent,,,,,, bright but not intense,,,, warm but not scorching,,,,
The bluish, reddish sky , the scent of dawn , the morning calls of birds,,,, the heavenly message effusing out of every being , animate or inanimate…..
The world asleep around me, many perhaps just a wee bit before,,,, the silence encompassing me,,,,,
Something drew me to move out and feel it, my feet guided me on their own accord,,,
The outside world was thousand times enchanting than from that little nook assigned to me ,,,,,,
And then this beautiful morn inadvertently took me back to several such breathtaking morns witnessed earlier,,,
Is it different from them???? Is the feel similar,,,,
Yes,, its different,,,, very very different,,,,,
The morn here is mystical, the voices soothing but unknown, giving pleasure but not faith,,,,,
The earlier morns had mundane but familiar sounds , ones you could relate to,,, ones that personified faith and love and care even when generated unconsciously,,,,,
The world earlier was viewed by a mortal, someone tied down to things,, every bit of sky seemed your own,,,,
But here you can’t claim, its just to witness and seek momentary pleasure,,,,

But whatever it might be,,,, I feel happy after so long,,,
This Sunday morn, I’ve seen the other side of this city,,,, so aesthetic , so serene,,,,
And I look forward to spend this beautiful day!!!!!

The River,,,

The silent river; tranquil,, serene,,, unperturbed by the ambience, unperturbed by the fact that someone sits on its side; as serene, as quiet, as calm as its own self but embroiled in her own quandary, her own thoughts, her own anguish,,,,
Someone like its own surface; seemingly steady and placid ,,,but so vulnerable to turbulence,,,, one little pebble: and this silence is broken, this order, this acceptance of familiarity, of steadiness,,,, all of it is lost,,,

This little undulation transforms into a giant wave, carrying away with it all the serenity, all the calm,,, leaving behind a turmoiled existence,,,,,
A miniscule mentation, infracting the peace, the joy, the happiness,,,,
A placid life encumbered by desires, agonies, expectations;

All that now remains is to curb the wave, to curb her desires, to remain in this real realm,,,,
The realm of Reality, of Truth, of Accepting things as they come,,, of accepting joys,,, of accepting pains,,, of accepting neglect,,,,, of accepting denials ,,, of accepting acceptances
Designing itself to resist this pebble, the pain inflicted by it, breaking free of the control that it has , the thoughts, this pain, those fragments of words,,,,
Attaining its own serene , unperturbed , unscathed self once again,,,,
And For other souls to sit beside it and yet again envy - its placidity, its calm, its endurance

I wait !!!!

Walking on red bricks,
With chrysanthemums around…
Deprived of its covers…
The empty walls that lie around,,,
The hanging curtains, soiled and bemired,,
The frenzy and revelry that is somewhere lost,,,

The moron rooms that had turned so gay,,,
And the night long renditions that made there way,,,
The numerous bonds that were formed,,,,
But the occasional rifts that also went round,,

But they now stand, waiting to witness,,,
The smearing of colors and the midnight bashes,,,
Like the spring leaf, we had blossomed around,,
But autumn’s tyranny has no bound,,,

We’re back to that old moron world,,
Deprived of colors, joy and fun,,,,
But what we cherish, will forever stay,,
The lifelong bonds and friendships we made,,,

Walking on red bricks, I wait to witness,,,
More such days of blissful senses,,
More such hours of carefree oblivion,,
More such moments, worth eternal treasures.

There

A paradise it may be for you,,,,
A heaven that you attained,,,,
A glory of thousand shimmers,,,
A beauty well acclaimed,,,,
The reasons might be many,,,
But what they bring is dear,,
Tears of joy and pleasure,,,
Imminent and so near,,,
But along comes the anguish,,
Of being so far from there,,,
There, where you stayed and spent and played and strived,,
There, where you know, only happiness can lie
There, what you call,abode in the truest sense,,
There, where you breath, the most fragrant air,,,
A web of desires and thoughts arise,,,,
That take you through your entire life ,,,
But deep down only what remains,,,
Is sweet memories of “There” again.

Let Me Be..

Let me be the moon , so frivolous and gay
Moulding its shape , that pleases its way

Let me be the winds that gush around
Jovial and free making beautiful sounds

Let me be the butterfly thats coloured so bright
Dazzling its beauty and pleasing our sight

Let me be that raindrop settled on the leaf
Radiating the sunbeams in seven colors for THEE

Let me be the river , so placid and serene
With moon and stars shining within me

Let me be the snowflakes of the first christmas fall
Eagerly awaited and desired by all

Let me be the Sunrise , showing new morns
To the lives of people , deprived for so long

And let me be the sunset , that will bring no pains
Only hopes of finding a new "sunrise" again

I wish I was a Goldfish!

I wish I was a goldfish,,,,,with a 3s memory span,,,,,aloof of what lies in store and what i've lost,,,Enjoying every second for its own beauty,,,,thanking god for its existence,,,without going into the reasons of it,,

The present being the best,,,its vividity nothing but a semblance of divinity,,,every momentan aeon in itself,,,,something unique,unseen,unheard,unfelt,devoid of any signatures to compare it with,,,,the beauty, the innocence , the pain all exotic to that one divine moment........

The moment carved by ur ownself,,,,,the sky seeming new once again,,,the days afresh,,,,thefights forgotten,,,but the promises kept,,,,Neither The pain of seperation nor the anxiety to anticipate,,,,the time leading the way instead you steering it away,,,,,

But Holding no memories,,,,treasuring no gains,,,,u just live and die,,leaving neither memories nor pain,,,,U are to noone as noone is to you,,,,u r for urself in all that you do,,,

Without,,,

We are now strangers,
And forever shall be.
Without our eyes meeting
Still speaking words to each.
Without crossing the barriers,
Without seeking to feel,
Without holding you,
Just a pain you would be.
Without building castles
Of the happy hours ahead,
Without brooding over
The precious days we left.
Without seeking pardon
For those nasty words we shared
Without craving forward for,
Those pleasantries we had.
Without singing to ourselves
The songs of bliss and love,
Without mourning for those
Who forever shall leave us.
Without waiting to witness,
The reaped fruit of love.
Just lets meet and depart,
and follow this sacrosanct rule.
Without you , let me find,
The new meaning to life.
Without me , let you tread,
And seek felicity in life.

tagging Love

I've been tagged :(( and that too quite mercilessly on the topic that i've been shying off rather asininely to write on . Pyaar , ishq aur mohabbat : the rules to this game are as ambiguous as it can be,,,,But still we all tread on it ; finding our own paths , own way and our own comrade on it .Each of us dream of someone special and am I an exception to it ????

Before starting let me refresh your memory regarding the "tagging" business .
1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover
2. You have to mention the sex of the target.
3. Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their comments saying they've been tagged.
4. If tagged the 2nd time, there's no need to post again.

So here's my pandora box unleashed :


1.

2.

3.

4.

5.

6.

7.

8.

:D,,,U see i'm really an exception to it,,,,,so aphrodite u have to wait for me to really write something on "LOVE" :))
On a more serious note,,,,,,The day that person comes along my way , I would be loving and falling for him irrespective of what all i think or want in that guy ,,,,so frnds me waiting for that day,,and definitely then i would update this:D


and I'm simply going to enjoy the nxt part . I tag : abhivyakti , aphrodite, poornima , sneha , sarika , anant , sindhu , chavvi:)

BARE TREES,,,,

Bare and naked ; It stands as a colossal ; reminiscent of the beauty its been deprived off ; the flowers it has lost ; the leaves that now lie fallen below it ; nothing more than a dry mass of waste ; crackling on touch , cursing their destiny of robbing them off their beauty , their life , their existence.

Bare and naked ; It reminds the rover of that beautiful spring when he lay under its vast spread of shade ; heaven in that huge desert ; the birds that chirped above ; the scent that filled the air; the motherly way it nurtured ,,,

Bare and naked ; It reminds those birds of their nests , their abode where they began their lives , their menage , those shares , those fights , those rearing of their childs ,,,,

Bare and naked , it reminds me of that walk , that eternity, that winter night ; that spring morn ; those pink flowers , that forlorn bench , those secrets shared , that smiling pic , those cups of tea , those endless talks ,,,

And for autumns to come , this bare tree would remind you of ME........

Shall we dance

The rhythm and the beats,
With the music and reeds;
The desire to dance, with you along;
You, who is unknown , but still belong:
To the dreams , that I dread to see,
Or in the sync that I wish to achieve.

In the waltz of life with you along,
Let we be in perfect harmony and accord.
To the unsaid words that torture my soul,
Or the mute tunes that I sing so long,
Let us dance on them like never before,
Hand in hand , soliciting the floor.

Be it first or let it be last,
No matter how we tap and dance.
For this is how we shall continue to be,
In wrongs and rights and rhythms and beats.
For I'll step my feet where you sway me along,
And you in turn would follow my song.

But when the chords break or the rhythm is lost,
We'll together contrive and ammend its form .
Just you and me would together attain ,
The phoenix from its ashes again .
The trust and faith shall seldom be lost,
In this dance of life with you along.
The pains of strain or the riches to gain,
Can take a toll and discord the sync.
But whisper these words before its late:
"SHALL WE DANCE" my dear again.

Adieu,,

It was like any other dawn ; Birds chirping ,,,,,,,scented breeze and the first signs of the golden rays tearing away the darkness,,,,,,,,,but it was the 17th of february,,,,17th FEB 2002,,,,The day she wud be formally bidding adieu to her alma mater; her school,,her first tryst with life,,,

She was there on time , articulately dressed, her usual calm and composed self ; exchanging pleasantaries with her friends , mentors and those inanimate objects whose existence seemed so meaningful today. Snacks were served ,,,,, adresses delivered ; some with misty eyes and some with buisness-like perfection embossed with words but devoid of emotions,,,,, And it was now her turn to do the honours,,,,

Quietly , with misty eyes and some incoherent words , she thanked everyone around for the wonderful time that she had and how wud she miss it from now on,,,,Miles lay ahead of her ; the sky to reach and the world to conquer,,,,she said it all ,,,,,
But there was something which she never said,,,,,She never said how much she wud miss that one particular friend with whom she had smiled and cried her heart out,,,,,how one certain teacher silently encouraged and supported her always,,,she never said how badly she wud miss those banterings with her peers,,,,she never said that the last farewell song had touched her so much that she could never ever forget its poignancy,,,,,she never said how those childish pranks played by her can still make her smile,,,how her fantasies knew no bounds while enacting "the arms and the man",,,,,how the only spank that she ever recieved still made her cry,,,,,how much she enjoyed gossiping 'bout the "events" around,,overhearing conversations and nicknames that knew no bounds,,,, that she also respected those teachers as her parents , who called her their dear child,,,, she never said how much she wud miss those desks, benches, the scribbled comments on them,, ,,and she never said that some day when she returns back ,she would still be loving it the same,,,
But today ,,four years hence , face to face with a farewell so many times more difficult than the previous one , she can only contemplate,,,,be her calm and composed self,,thank everyone around for the wunderful time that she had , bid adieu and leave everything else unsaid for the next one,,,,,

DAYS,,,,

These everlasting lanes Where I ran and played,,,,
Those melliflous sounds that soothed my way,,,,,
The hidden alcove with my secrets profound,,,
Those yesteryears with their charms abound,,,
The tender hands that brought me up,,,,
Ignored my tantrums and nurtured with love,,,
The little nook , where I fell and cried,,
Or the pretty dresses that made me smile ,,,
Those two little plaits with red ribbons,,,
The black shoes with lacy buttons,,,
Those plaintive rhymes and fairytales,,,
Of kings and queens and endless trails,,,
Took us to the world that we dreamt,,,,
Filled with love and no contempt .
Those wonder words that people said,,,
Or the occasional rifts that I often had,,,,
Those frequent fights that were 'normous fun,,
That innocence of childhood can never return,,,

The nostalgia of the days gone by,,,
Still loom large which i can never defy,,,
Unaware of worries , ache and pain,,,
Take me back to those blissful days,,,
Where I can once again feel the charm of this life;
The truth of my existence and the destiny that I deny.

Roobaroo Roshni hai !!

The other day my friend asked me " If given a legal right , whom wud you like to kill???"
I had answered jokingly " too many to name",,,,
But i was so so very wrong,,,,,,My perceptions have changed suddenly in a day,,,,,,,thnx to rakeysh Omprakash,,,I've now realized what it actually takes to transform educated , carefree and self centered ppl like us to brutal killers ,,,,,
The hatred , pain and frustration ofbeing wronged , of losing someone dear , of letting go our hard earned freedom to corrupt and senseless ppl around us ,,,the intensity with which certain events affect us ; all combine to bring out the worst in us,,,
Its easy to name ppl whom you hate and wud like to kill,,,but it is million times more difficult to vent out your hatred against ppl who have actually wronged you , robbed you of your rights and left you to just LIVE ; live not for happiness but live to breathe and breathe to live,,,,,

To kill or to defy law is a taboo and something that instantly terms you as a terrorist ,,,,,a defaulter , an outsocial ,,,
If that applies,was bhagat singh a terrorist ?
Was the stubborn opposition of Gandhiji not a breaking of law?
Or was massive killing of innocent ppl during Jalianwallah not a breach of law on the britishers part????
Sure , these incidents were termed the same at the time they took place ,,,But are they the same 50-60 yrs hence,,,,
Definitely NO ,,,they r now termed as sacrifices , quoted as examples of bravery to generations that follow,,,,,serving as epitome of selfless act for the benefit of masses,
If that be the case , an act of today to make India better , although be it against the law,is definitely a worthwile investment ;An investment that wud look for our sacrifices ,,,,the awakening of this generation and those to follow, to come out of the self confined territories to accept the drastic truths staring blatantly at our faces,,,,,
This may sound too huge and made up,,and perhaps once the hangover of the movie passes by me,I would also return back to the mundane self centered life of mine ,,,,,,
But , as of today , I've viewed this world with a different light,,,,At least for today ,,,,to me ROOBAROO ROSHNI HAI

WORDS

Some say that silence speaks....
And your eyes reflect what your heart feels.
You don't need words to vent out your thoughts,
your feelings and desires and all that you sought.
But we need words to vignette our life..
The painter within us yearning to strive.
To choose words that matter to us
And touch the people we most trust.
To say the words, which we had longed to hear,,
But the hope slimmed with each passing year.
To gift that little heartfelt thanks,,,
That we never could give,,
To seek penance for the offence
That we so often committed,,,,
Thoughts that could never transcend
The interiors of our heart,,,
Beliefs that were lost
On the bends of our paths,,,,,
Words that were left untold
Of praises and love and respect and woe,,,,,
Reconciliations that could never happen
For it was silence that sought those,,,
Words that would go down with you
Unsaid and unuttered with emotions they hold,,,,
Address them to others , for they also yearn
To feel your love and care and concern,,,,
For words give meaning not only to prose
But to verses of life that you so often propose,,,,

hazaaron khwaishein aisi

Streets we have never walked on
Windows we have never openend
Hands we have never held
Dreams we shall never ever see
Lives we have never lived
Hopes we have never realized
Fires we have never lit
Love we shall never ever get
But still , I hear those strange whispers again!!!!

Interpretations

Marasim :
The relationship that is felt and not forced,,,,,which originates from trifle incidents and strengthens with time,,,,
It can be as poignant as the love between a mother and her child or can be as bitter as that between two rivals ,,,,
It can be as deep as that felt by two lovers seperated by the manmade bounds or as shallow as what a miser feels for his money,,,,
It can be as pure as the faithful chants of a devotee or can be as bemired as that between a slayer and his prey,,,,,
It can be as perspicuous as a book for everyone to read or as intangible as a crypt left to be decoded for you and me,,,,,,
It is the bond that now binds you and me,,,for you know my thoughts from which you know me,,,,,,,,,,


VARTIKA :

Vartika , the lighted wick of an earthen lamp,,,,,,,the wick that burns itself to light the world around her,,,,,,

Vartika , the elucidiation of vedas ,,,,,,,,,signifying its purity and relevance,,,,,,giving us the insight to the myriad mysteries of our life,,,,,,,,

Vartika, the floral arrangement of a flower ,,,,,,,,,intending to underscore the importance of order in life,,,,,,,,,,as the beauty of flower is reflected by its flawless arrangement ; the beauty of life is portrayed in its rhythm and sync,,,,,,

Vartika , the color,,,,,,,,,,,,,pouring colors of life over the grimness and darkness surrounding this world,,,,,,,

And lastly , Vartika , the "tulika " or the brush ,,,,,,,,,adding colors of happiness and dimensions of hope to your existence

To leave behind,,,,

In the misty morn with glistening rays,,
An answer was given to anxious prays,,,
A wee little girl with wee little smile,,,
Came down to earth to tread the mile,,,,

The world seemed beautiful with its riches galore,,,,
The mysteries to unfurl and the treasures to explore,,,,
She lived in a shell , protected and unharmed
Cocooned in a world of utopian charm,,,,,,

She grew to be loved and cared by all,,,,
Unscathed from any harm that came along,,,
For her the world was this divine home,,,,
Embraced with love , entwined with hope.

And then came the day,,all dressed in red,,,,
With misty eyes that glistened like beads,,,,
She was to leave this abode and tread,,,
The path of her life and the bend ahead .
To leave behind , the days of mirth ,,,
To leave behind , whatever was hers,,,
To leave behind the only identity she had,,,,,
To leave behind for whom she most cared,,,,,
To leave behind , the ONLY world she saw,,,,,
To leave behind , who's part she was,,,
To leave behind , the unconditional care,,,
Bestowed on her irrespective of her flare
To leave behind ,the heavenly love,,,
Which had followed her everywhere,,,,,
To leave behind the Utopian world,,,,
Who's existence she had felt,,,,,
AND to leave behind with only one plead,,,,
To build the same wherever she went.

FOLLOW UR DREAMS ,,,,,,,,,

The alchemist - the book that inspires u to dream big and not just dream but pusrue that dream,,,,,,,,,
The book glides thru a plethora of thoughts and fundae to lead life ,,,,,,The protagonist is indeed someone whom one can look up to draw inspiration and the zeal to achieve what u want,,,,,,,,,,,
Initially on reading the book , it seemed like a book that was far from reality,,,,For after all how many of us have in us the courage to give up all the amenities and chase a dream having no
footing and is nothing more than a figment of our unconscious mind,,,,,,,,,,How many of us dream and believe in there feasibility.,,,,,,I have also dreamt numerous times of achieving something great in life ,,,,,but what remains on regaining consciousness is just a smile resulting on the mere thought of assuming myself in that covetous state,,,,,,,,,,,,,And thats what the story is about : If the mere thought can give u so much happiness then how wud it be to actually achieve ur dream,,,,,,,,,,,,,The moral and way is simple and unique,,,,,,,never give up , work towards ur goal but never forget ur past and who mattered to u ,,,,,,As the King of Salem said ,,," The secret of happiness is to see all the marvels of the world,and never to forget the drops of the oil on the spoon"
But most of us shy off to pursue our dreams,,,,,,,we are one of the two kinds ; The first kind symbolized by the crystal merchant,,,,,,,who are monotonously carrying on with their lives with a secret dream ,,,The dream that is highly realizable ,,,,,,But are skeptical to achieve it for the fear that once it is achieved, they wud have nothing left to excite themselves to carry on with their lives ,,,,,,For Once we have met our ultimate goal , the life wud seem meaningless without any challenge or desire left ,,,,,,,
The other half are those leading a life similar to the early life of the protagonist : The knowledge that gr8 things exist in the world,,,,,,,,but those who are wary to give up this life of comfort , stability and ease to explore untreaded lands,,,,,,,,,,
Most of us undoubtedly populate the second dichotomy(including me),,,,,,,And this book is undoubtedly for people like us to introspect and weigh the importance of our dreams as compared to pithy comforts that surround us,,,,,,,,,What we find is that most of the times when we find that our dreams are not plausible we switch them,,,,,,,,we mould them according to our ambience and surroundings,,,,,Then what remains is not what we actually want to achieve but what can be
ACHIEVED ,,,,,,,,,,,Its not our dream that we pursue then,,,,,,,,,,,It is what is guided by norms and conventions and therefore results in the most hackneyed solution to our dreams,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
Instead what we actually require is the endurance and the fanatic like will of the Protagonist to find the treasure ,,,,,,,,,,,,Our dreams might not be as momentous as the treasure or the protagonist's lady love but whatever they are , they are equally important ; for they are our dreams ,,,,,,,,,,,,,We might be mocked as the protagonist is mocked so many times,,,,but that is what will be our litmus test,,,,,,,and that will decide at the end how well can we achieve what we want,,,,,,,,,,,our persistence and perseverance,,,,,,Our will to holdfast to the actual dream without chasing the euphemistic versions of it ,,,,,,,,,,,,And as Paul Coelho advises us ,,,,,,identify the omens,,,,,,,,and perhaps writing this is an omen for me which has rejuvenated in me the importance of realizing my dreams and achieving them,,,,,,,,,,,

WHY

Why is it that a little child,,,,,
Longs to step in his father's boot,,,,,
And the father with all his plight,,,,
Longs to be a child once more,,,,,,
Why is it that we lose to see,,,,,
The love and care of our dear ones,,,,,,
And why do then we yearn for them ,,,,,,
When we know they can never return,,,,,,,,
Why is it that some spend their life ,,,,
yearning for more and more,,,,,,,,
While there are so many others,,,,,
Who care little for what these treasures store,,,,,,
Why is it that luck favors some ...
When all of us bear the brunt.,,,,,
Why is it that "ONLY" some get what they want
When the others've toiled the same amount......
Why is it that these viccitudes ,,,,,,,,,,
Hurt me more than others,,,,,,,
Why is it that I enclose myself,,,,,,,
In wraps of anxiety and bother,,,,,,,,
Why is it that I fail to see,,,,,,
The kindness of THEE,,,,,
Why is it I forget to concede ,,,,,,
How lucky I have been,,,,,,,
Why is this pessimism,,,,,,
Concomitant with me,,,,,,,,
When I know ,inspite of all,,,
How lucky I have been,,,,,,,,,,

The Unknown

I have heard you within me......
And have felt you hear to me....
My agonies and my pain.....
My desires and my aims .....
My distress when I cry ,,,,
My anguish when I sigh........

You led my way when I was lost......
You told me what was right and wrong....
You know why I cry n what makes me smile.....
You know why I tread this long mile.....
You can fathom what i feel......
You know my dreams and what I seek...
You know me through ,but I've yet to seek...
You are the "UNKNOWN" ,,,,I'm yet to meet

The life which is.....

Why am I what I am???? Looking at the vast dark expanse of the welken that shreds the bright sunshine to myriad bits every night;I fear that sooner or later this would be the fate of every being......so why have we been given the hope to live ,,,,,the reason to dream and the zeal to pursue these dreams when ultimately they would be shattered to innumerable shards........